I’m a suicidal I caught my wife cheating

I was one of many men who never thought a day would come when my wife would cheat on me. I found out when my friend and I jokingly got mSpy to spy on our wives' phones. There were no signs at all of her infidelity so I was 100% sure that I wouldn't get anything suspicious in her phone. On the other hand, my friend had doubts based on his wife's recent behaviour. We got mSpy to do the job and they immediately sent us instructions which later gave us access to the women's phones. The shock I felt when I checked her WhatsApp and messages is hard to describe. I contacted MSPYSERVICS@ GMAIL COM to hack her phone but i found out that nothing was on her phone so they hacked into her mac-book. i could not believe all that i saw on her laptop she has all her major text messages on her mac-book, she uses WhatsApp on her laptop also i found out that she was in a relationship with my friend who i call my brother i had full access to her mac-book and also read all there messages and so many they always hang out at a hotel on Sundays.. All I saw was too much for me to keep to myself. My wife is the sweetest and most caring woman on earth and there was no way I would ever imagine her hurting me in any way but mSpy linked all her secrets. But surprisingly, she had been sleeping with our son's coach for what seemed like months. I ambushed her and her defence was that she got lonely because I no longer give her attention and affection but the truth is that I have been occupied with work since I am the breadwinner. I somehow understand her but at the same time I feel no emotion. I love my family and I don't want us to go through the agony of divorce. What should I do?