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My life put at risk due to Legal Aid KZN. I am involved in a ******** case Legal Aid Reference number X975366123. My first appearance 19/05/2023 Legal Aid representation Mr Lushaba did not even greed didn't even had the docket yet. There were 5 accussed people he came and told us that we all guilty and intimidated me to plead guilty. I lodge a complaint with the LPC against Mr Lushaba in 2024. Mr Lushaba was so rude and more interested in intimidating me to plead guilty, he never paid attention to the court proceedings. On the following two Appearances the 14/07/2023 and the 01/09/2023 the state confirmed charges against me for Money laundering only. The court magistrate Mr Davis ordered the state to provide evidence of the charge by presenting the bank statements. He also informed the state that the bank account is not in question and will not be looked at. Mr Lushaba told me that he is scared off me after the complaint was lodge against him with the LPC. Then he withdrew from the case. The second representation Ms Dumakude followed in Mr Lushaba footsteps. She even wanted to consult over a phonecall dealing with such a serious ******** case. She looked at my court appearance notes and saw, I lodge a complaint against Mr Lushaba then she also withdrew from the case. The third representative Mr Reason Ngobo after charges against me were confirmed and the court already ordered the state to provide evidence of. On the 19/01/2024 Mr Reason Ngobo allowed the state prosecutor Ms Ramouthar to intimidate me to plead guilty for money laundering. I refused. I even informed Mr Reason Ngobo that the police affidavit which formed part of the *******ly information obtained by officer Yvonne was removed from the docket. Nothing about this was done. He allowed the state prosecutor Ms Ramouthar to intimidate me to plead guilty, this after charges against me were confirmed and the court magistrate Mr Davis ordered the state to provide evidence of which is ignored to date, he still allowed the state prosecutor Ms Ramouthar to add two more accounts one attempted ***** and two attempted Theft without objecting to these charges if he should have known that it's a serious ******** offense to intimidate someone and that it's ******** conduct against the ******** Procedure Act to add charges, when the state already confirmed the charges against me and the court magistrate Mr Davis ordered the state to provide evidence of. Mr Reason Ngobo left Durban Legal Aid without even informing me. He didn't even withdraw from the case. The last representation Ms Moodley failed miserably to represent me. After the complainant failed too appear for cross questioning four times. Ms Moodley never prepared for the case. When the complainant finally decided to appear before the court for cross questioning Ms Moodley wasn't prepared we never had any consultations I even had to supply Ms Moodley with the questions to ask the complainant. When we finally talked I informed her off what actually happened and transpired throughout the case. With all this new evidence she said she have to withdraw from the case. Now I'm are getting punished for Legal Aid representation ******** contuct. An appeal was lodge with the Provincial and National office for Legal Aid South Africa to represent me in this matter. Legal Aid are refusing to represent this after all the supported documents and appeal was send to Legal Aid. Now I need to represent my self. I don't know how to represent myself. I spoken to Ms Nombulelo from the Provincial Office for Legal Aid KZN. Informed her what transpired throughout this case and informed her now that I need to present myself. I am presented out of 19 Appearances only 8 recorded transcripts supp****. I am also supp**** by Mr Prag court manager with a *****ulent charge sheet P21 stating that the two most appearances was only remands, the prosecutor mentioned on the P21 wasn't even the prosecutor appearing on these two Appearances. Now when I try to contact Ms Nombulelo from the Provincial Office for Legal Aid KZN there's no answer. I am punished for Durban Legal Aid representation ******** conduct. There is complaints lodge against Mr Lushaba and Mr Reason Ngobo with me LPC and I am informed that the LPC did open the complaint and this time the matter is getting investigated. How am I suppose to represent myself in this matter if the court is not providing me with a complete docket. Plus going so far to supply me with a *****ulent charge sheet P21 makes me very scared. I am pleading with the Provincial Office for Legal Aid KZN to please assist me with this matter, with representation which can assist me in a fair manner. Because this trail have been ******** conducted and is unfair and prejudice towards me. Can someone please contact me regarding this matter urgently. My next appearance is on the 09/09/2025. My contact number is 0797658271. Would be very much appreciated. Kind regards Heindrich