Scared to deliver after giving normal birth to baby laying breedge

It was in 2017 while I was about to deliver my baby boy I got there then the Dr did a check to see how far I'm open to deliver he then said to my husband your wife is in labour and baby is on his way she is about 7 cm open and I'm gonna deliver this baby my self it's gonna be a smooth delivery he said not knowing when I got to the labour ward about to deliver already in labour the midwife seems to see that something is not rite after checking how many cm meters I'm open she ran out came in with a Dr and a scan machine only to find out baby is bridge and did not turn into position for me to give birth the Dr had to put his hand up in me to turn baby while I'm pushing as I'm in labour and it's to late to do anything ells then baby was born with feet out first I had 3 children before this and never have I expected to give birth like this it was a delivery of hell but if this Dr did not come in time I don't know what would have happened to me and my baby I have the biggest fear in me now then I'm 38 weeks pregnant again now and was admitted at 36 weeks with abscess and was treat by the doctors they way they to care of me felt like I was in a private hospital but the sisters were just unconcern you could feel the cold hearted feeling from them there were only two nice once that helped me as the Dr said I must use ice packs for the swelling but they never put it in the freezer or if they did then I would wait a long period if they remember to bring it leaving me in such pain I could not walk because of the pain but those sisters did not care at all then I was discharged still with the pain of the as the absence did not go away even after antibiotics the Dr give me now I had to be back at hospital on the 13 of may but was to scared the go back still have the absence on my private part can't walk still in pain and am at my due date Monday 24th of june but am scared to go in to hospital because of my previous delivery in 2017 now I'm sitting with pain can't walk or move like normal waiting on my own labour pains to kick In but the Dr told me they would fetch baby at 38 weeks but I'm so scared and it's because I had a still born in 2004 as well I'm stressed out and sacred at the same time don't no must I go in to hospital or just wait for labour pains to come by it's self